So Andrew picked me up at my house, and he gave me a big hug, and then opened my car door for me. I realize some people aren't about that, and he didn't keep doing it, but especially as a way to start off, it was super cute. We drove to Silver Diner and looked all over for parking, which was weirdly fun? Like he probably felt all nervous about it but for me it was just like okay I get to spend more time with him? And of course Silver Diner was crazy busy (literally everything was 'cause it's Saturday and it's right after a holiday), but it was cool to talk about the music they played and about movies and fun plans for winter break and all that. The food was delicious (and even our orders were amusing to me, like oh my goodness). He paid (which will not happen again, I insist upon it, next time I'm just gonna snatch the check). Afterwards we hung out in Barnes & Noble for hours, and talked about books and anime and movies and video games and so much else. We read a lot of fun things and we even stopped in to the kids section for a while, where I had a ridiculous amount of glee. I'm five, I swear. We drove to Brookside, but ended up not going in (because SINCE WHEN do they CHARGE for Garden of Lights??? And why is it thirty bucks???) which was kinda disappointing, but honestly just led to more fun conversation about family and friends and church and old high school memories. And we ended the night swinging in a park. That's it. Swinging in the cold under the stars chatting about whatever came to mind. Anime voice actors and Alpha Psi letters and puppies. That was my first date. And it's nothing fancy or crazy. Just a genuinely great time with a really great guy.
Today was kind of scary for me. I feel like God has been pushing me closer to Andrew for a while now. I don't know if that's necessarily so that I can be with him. Maybe he's meant to teach me something. Or maybe we just make a good team. I don't know yet and it's too early to know what God has in store just yet. But He has something. I heard something not too long ago that basically said "Christian women, when dating, have a habit of saying yes to the guy until God says no. We need to learn to say no until God says yes." I said no to Andrew for many reasons at first (not outright, just mentally. I didn't reject him, I just said no to the idea). The reasons started dwindling. It's like every time I had a problem, God said He had a solution. Don't date younger? Oh guess what he's actually really mature for his age. Uncomfortable dating a potential new member? Literally no one will hold it against you, I promise. Scared you won't see him after you graduate? Guess what, his house is literally ten minutes from yours. By the way, he has a little sister which, you know, is something I know you really like so there you go. God is doing something and I really just have to trust Him! My biggest fear was "he says he's Christian, but that doesn't mean anything. Just because he acts the part and isn't like a criminal doesn't mean he is Christian. He may be someone that goes to church on, like, Easter and that's it". And I know, I've always known, that I cannot be with someone like that because I want someone who will help me grow in my spiritual life and be a leader for me. It is a rule I set long ago, and I knew that today would be the day I'd find out whether or not I could pursue this any further. The very very very very good news is that my worries were for nothing. God led me to him for a reason. Again, NOT SAYING this is the guy I'm spending the rest of my life with hahahah it's just one date. But it was a great date. And I'm trusting the path God has made for me. Regardless of where this goes later on, I had a good time. A really really really good time. Yup.
Day 2: Bokeh
How does one bokeh without a decent camera or fun lights?
I don't know. Here's another Christmas tree.
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