Night and Day

I know you read the private blog every chance you get. I'm sure you saw that last night my emotions were everywhere. I had a lot of feelings about a lot of things. I went to bed angry. I hope you read this blog, too. If nothing else, I hope you read it today.

I woke up from a dream about Jonathan. First time in a long while. I mean, aside from that odd one in Chicago but I know exactly why that one happened, and my immediate reaction was a strong desire to call Nick haha. It's weird that Jonathan isn't my number one in that regard anymore, but it's a welcome challenge. Even if my preference isn't exactly attainable, I'd like to think Nick is pretty great improvement. I obviously woke up surprised today, and even a little nostalgic. But I think the best part is that I woke up with nostalgia and not longing or sadness or jealousy. Getting over your first love is an ongoing process and I'm not sure it ends. But I'm gaining peace. A peace I clearly did not have yesterday.

I woke up feeling surprisingly rested for someone who got less than 6 hours of sleep. I got the chance to pray this morning, and I actually had time to talk to God about every item on my list. I rarely have time for that, and it felt so good to give my problems up to God at the start of my day. I even had a bit of extra time. So I watched some of my shows and started the next step in the VBS decorations I'm making. I also sent a good morning text to the cast of Alpha Psi today. They've been on my heart lately and I hope I could help them start their day right.

Everyone's in a good mood at the office today. It's Friday so we get out early. We're all chatting and laughing. I'm making some good progress today. I am finally caught up in my work. The doctors aren't here and there's less patients so everyone is casual and comfy, and they feel so much relief that it's rubbed off on me. I packed a lunch but Hermana Claudia is a gem and she's buying us pizza. Looks like my lunch can be my dinner tonight!

After work, my dad and I will practice driving. We're going back to the parking lot so I can practice backing up hehe. I feel oddly at ease about it? I'm sure I'll have nerves when I do it, but I don't foresee it being nearly as bad as I've been in the past. And then I will go home and hopefully have time to make a video. During which I will most likely be making more decorations hehe. Today is a good day. It's Friday! I feel better than I have in quite some time. Let's keep this good mood going!