Sammy Sent A Letter

Sammy did a stupid thing! Well no. Maybe not stupid. Especially since, for the time being, I feel better. I sent the boy a letter. I vented like a lot. I basically was like, hey, here's everything I wanted to tell you and couldn't because you don't call anymore (I think I may have been a little passive aggressive at some points about the whole no longer talking thing). Well anyway, I did it. I wrote it just to make myself feel better. I sent it in the hopes of closure. There's no guarantee he'll respond. Honestly, who even knows if he checks his mail?! But I sent it. I was worried at first. What if it hurts him? What if it brings back some negative feelings? What if he's been over it for a while and he pities me? I know he'd never judge me, but pity is something I feared intensely. But it doesn't matter anymore. It's out of my hands and up to God now. Maybe it'll even get lost in the mail haha. But at least the thoughts don't have to die with me. I don't like the term "move on" because it sounds like I'm dying to get over him and find someone new, which isn't the case. But I think I can start to get better. This Saturday will make two months since the breakup, and four since the first kiss. I'm going to spend the day with my niece & nephew. That's my happy place.

I'm glad your letter finally arrived. You're a babe for sending the album my way. Please write back soon. Nothing in the world makes me feel as good as a letter from my best friend.