10/3/15

Yay gay play. We put on a show. An incredibly important show that has changed my life. It was the last night. My sister got to see it :) And I got to share this beautiful memory with an insanely wonderful cast. And at the end, during strike, I got my magnet on a stick ^_^

10/1/15

We got ready for the show today. Thursday nights are usually pretty slow in terms of energy and crowds. Turns out the crowd was not too shabby! Right before places was called, we did our greenroom routine. We stand in a circle. We say encouraging words. We pass energy around the group and pray to Dionysus for a good show. Today was senior circle. Elizabeth, our director, pulls the seniors from the big circle and has us form our own smaller circle. She did that tonight. And none of us were really ready. We've all spent four magical years together. And she told the cast that tonight, they did this show for us. And it was kind of surreal. That I watched it happen three years in a row. And now I'm in the circle. Looking at the faces of the people I love and trust with all my heart. And we are telling one of the most important stories we will ever tell. It feels heartbreaking and scary and humbling and magical.

Lots of Crying

We were on stage. We were wrapped up in the scene. It felt very real. It felt very raw. We were doing well. We were on a roll. We rolled a little too far. And when you roll too far and too fast, AND you try to stop it? It just hits way too hard. And we all cried. Well Brandon, John, and Andrew didn't. Not for lack of emotion, but rather for lack of expressing the grief that we all felt. But everyone else cried. We lost it on stage, director included. We all needed a break to remind ourselves that we love each other and this tragedy will not be forgotten because we will remind people and we will make a difference. Hugs were appreciated. Tissues were necessary. And Elizabeth reminded us that it's okay to let that happen because it's not acting, there is no acting, it's all real. Not just for this show but every show. It's real. It's a tough business that actors choose for themselves, but it can be done. You just have to let yourself feel.

What an honor to have shared this moment and be a part of this show with all these incredible people.

Character Research

We all came to class today having done SO MUCH RESEARCH about our characters and the Laramie incident and Wyoming and all these people who are so supportive and helpful. Some people even emailed the people they are portraying! It's all so crazy and happening so fast. But this show matters. We're gonna show people just how much it matters.

A Part of Something Special

I am honored. Absolutely honored. To work on such an important show with such a needed message. And I'm proud of my cast. Already. Because they understand the severity of our work and what a difference we can make.