People Who Get It

MENTAL HEALTH IS HARD

I've explained this a lot to day and I don't want to explain it again haha. But essentially, I had a hard day today to the point of being VERY CLOSE to a mental breakdown. I mean it happens. Mental health and stress and being overworked is just a lot. So I got to a point where I said "when I get home, I need to stay home. I need to rest and regain balance". Not like some eternal metaphysical balance but like, for the time being, I need to calm my literal heart rate so I don't go into some sort of shock. Problem was I have rehearsal on Mondays. I called Jaroll, a great friend who happens to be in charge of rehearsal. I asked if I could skip today, not even really explaining why. And he allowed me to stay home, saying I deserved a break. And when I explained what happened, all he did was tell me he hopes I feel better. How good it is to have someone who understands how important it is. Like wow, it's an inconvenience to him to have people missing, but he still gave me this day. It means more than I can express

A lot changes in a year. Here's to not being where we were.

12-22-15

You ever have one of those days where it's hard to think of a highlight? Not because you had a bad day, but because in all honesty, you just did a whole lot of nothing? Yeah. That's today. Which is pretty freaking great. Hello winter break. You were much needed. Also, PRESENTS ARE BEING WRAPPED. CHRISTMAS TREE HAS PRETTY THINGS UNDER IT. I FEEL SO PRODUCTIVE hahaha I wrapped all of 4 presents, but I'm still going to count it as having done something cool.

Last Minute Byes

Before Break:

A last minute bye to Ben, Torreke, Brandon, Andrew, John, Chris, and Toni during a measurement session. We met the costumer for Picasso, who is SUPER pretty and sweet and we are all quite excited to work with her. (I'm also pretty happy with what she said my measurements were because yay diet an exercise!). And of course we all laughed at all the ridiculousness. And then got excited because I mentioned that you sent me a picture and literally everyone knows how attractive you are.

A last minute bye to Jess A. as she and her mommy ran out the door so she could go enjoy her much deserved time at home.

A last minute bye to Paul & Mindy, who came to watch Mariah play some Wolf Among Us and enjoyed the hilarity with me.

A last minute bye to Jess M. as we exchanged Christmas gifts because we are both insane children. I could search the whole wide world and never find anyone better for me in my life than Jess Mies. Like, I believe in non-romantic soul mates because she is mine. And she proved that, not only in the perfect gifts she got me, but just in her willingness to listen to me complain about stupid boys and stupid stress, and the unconditional love she gives me all the time. Aside from family of course, God puts certain people in your life and every day reminds me that I am so much better with Jess in my life. (And as much as I talk her up, you, my Twin and my Little also in that category because I have no clue what I would do without that ray of sunshine in my life or without Joshy's support and encouragement or without your constant love).

A last minute bye to this apartment because tomorrow morning, I will wake up and shower and eat and then leave this little campus behind for a week. Time to go home. And I'll admit I'm nervous to what home might bring. I have an unsettled feeling in my stomach and I don't know if I'm ready. But God knows what I need and I have to trust Him. So home I go!

The Street's A Little Kinder

It's been an odd week to say the least, but I am finally home. And after leaving McDaniel, I went straight to Karla's. I walked in and saw my lovely sister, finally getting some time to herself while Tia Haydee played with Cristina. And Cristina got so excited when I walked in! She made me play kitchen with her for a very long time. She's such a good little chef. She really enjoys feeding me the plastic hot dogs haha. And then we had a yummy dinner at California Tortilla. Karla wasn't feeling too great, but we got home and my mom made her a nice cup of lemonade, which actually helped her tummy. It just felt so good to be with them. I couldn't have asked for a better evening.

McDaniel as a Home

Being at McDaniel isn't ALWAYS fun. There's lots and lots and lots of work to do. My room is not my own. There are too many people in those dorms. The bathrooms are often dirty. People smoke and drink everywhere all the time, which makes it hard to breathe and sleep respectively. There's this stupid middle school drama that, even when you're not a part of it, you are always witnessing. Stress is real. Good food is nonexistent. And don't get me started on the feeling of being away from home while on your period.

I am back in Silver Spring and, after seeing some old high school friends, watching a show at Einstein, and spending some time with my mommy, I've realized McDaniel is home. It's annoying and inconvenient. But it's home. Because here I have Karla and Cristina. On campus I have supportive friends everywhere. I have a Little who I love and who loves me. I have the best friend I could ever have as a roommate. I have a Twin who is there for me at all times. I have a theatre to fall in love with every day. I have a church who actually makes me feel loved and welcomed, AND teaches me new things every time I go. A church that makes me a better person. And now a counselor to help me through the tough times.

Don't get me wrong. I'm THRILLED to be home. I need this break. Plus I'll get to see lots of people I love here, too. But McDaniel is home. And that is a surprisingly fantastic feeling.

About Time

Entry for Friday, February 6

Rehearsal got cancelled! That's pretty crazy and uncommon. Our musical director had car trouble. But the cool thing is I got 4 extra hours to my day in order to do lots of nonsense I didn't think I had time for previously. I think that's pretty cool. I love rehearsal. But sometimes it's nice to take breaks.

Fueled By Ramen

Aka College.

DONE WITH FINALS! HALLELU! And the two that I thought were the hardest and I would probably fail turned out to be the easiest! Studied like a madwoman for astronomy, and I finished the whole thing in half an hour. And Communications was pretty cool, too. There was a question about My So-Called Life and it was on like Cheech & Chong. Tis a good day. Now to make cards & learn lines. WE OPEN IN LESS THAN A WEEK. AHHHHH!

Title because college. Also because A Fever You Can't Sweat Out has been playing non-stop.

I'm pretty sure Panic! is one of the major reasons I'm so iffy about mimes. Like I'm almost 100% positive.

WinterSpringSummer or Fall

Reason 240: Alright school. I'm back. And I'm ready for you. -_________-

Oh. What? Snow? No class?...

SWEET!

Also the fact that this was posted on Thursday. Teehee

In Your Imagination

Reason 235 Disney Day Two:

• Bright and early! Start off at Epcot! With -gasp- what is this for breakfast? A cheese danish? :O Oh yeah, today is a great day.
• Flower & Gardens Festival! Pretty flowers EVERYWHERE. Butterflies too!
• "Electric Umbrella" restaurant will never stop being amusing
• Living With the Land. So cute. Dunno if I'd do it again, but cute. One thing I learned: Epcot has the potential to make the BEST fruit salad. Ever. Of all time.
• Soarin'. Oh my gosh, if I were not scared of heights I would book a trip to go hang-gliding right now. That was AWESOME. Everything looked so cool! It was absolutely gorgeous, and I loved feeling the breeze. I think Eric would really love that ride.
• MouseGears. HUGE. Store. I want everything.
• The Seas with Nemo and Friends. I LOVED being able to see all the Nemo characters again. They are all wonderful. And it is such a sweet story, with such beautiful animation and music.  
• Aquarium! ALL THE FISHIES!
• TurtleTalk. Maybe it's because of Karla, but I'm obsessed with the cuteness that is these children. Actually. And talking to Crush is legit.
• Journey Into the Imagination with Figment. So well done. And cutely creative. I am proud of Disney every day.
• Mission: SPACE. I was a navigator ^_^ It felt really cool!! But I don't think I'd be able to handle the intense level of that. Yay Green Team! All about the easy mode.
• TestTrack. Car. Fast. Cool. But. Car. Fast.... I think I just need to stay away from "Driving" situations for a while.
• COUNTRIES!
• "Who is that? Is it Cinderella? No.. I can't tell who that princess is. I can't remember her name!" .... Aurora. Sleeping Beauty. Briar Rose. Take your pick. "Sleeping Beauty?" "No, that's not it." XD
• Eating around the world
• Let's stay in Japan. Best food and OMG THIS STORE HAS EVERYTHING I'VE EVER WANTED. ANIMEEEEEE AND HELLO PANDA COOKIESSSS
• FUNNEL CAKE!
• The amount of kids playing the search for Perry thing, using their phones to find clues. It warms me so.
• 3 Caballeros ride. I will forever LOVE that movie. And hate the idiot in the boat who actually said "Arrrrrriba!!" No to you. Stahp.
• Spaceship Earth. aka the Epcot ball. It's so COOL. I want blue prints for that place. Truly.
• OFF TO NEVERLAND (MGM) HOLLYWOOD STUDIOS!
• Tower of Terror! Sorta. Yeah right, me? Pssshh. I just went through the line to see how they decorated the building. And oh yeah, so worth it. And then I went back down in a REAL elevator. With a bellhop lady who was pretty cool. I told her the Kowaleski family had been to Disney at least 40 times and her jaw legit dropped. I giggled. I should've told her my friend's name was Storm. Hah!
• Star Tours? Yes. I love R2D2, my little hispanic robot. That was honestly so cool. Love to that dad who actually looked his kind in the eye at the gift shop and said "We can get Star Wars stuff, ANYWHERE"
• Muppets 3D. I love Ms. Piggy & Beaker forever and always.
• The Great Movie Ride. I AM GOING TO TAKE KARLA & BABYGIRL ON THAT RIDE. And every movie she says, "What movie is that?" to, we will watch once we get home.
• So. Many. Lines.
• That line for Fantasmic. Mmmm. You bet we got there early. And had the dumbest time laughing about absolutely everything and scolding each other for being ridiculous and telling each other stupid relationship stories. That may be my favorite part of the night.
• People watching while the rain drizzles and delays the show.
• Kid behind us with the cheesily cute parents. Kid in front of us who would not sit still. Neither would his mother. Kid walking up the stairs while his mommy holds his hand and says, "If they cancel it, Mommy's going to be mad, so we're just going to leave." Chick who got the entire audience to do the wave while we waited. Except Storm of course. -sigh- no optimism that one. We balance I guess?
• FANTASMIC. SO. GOOD. I CAN'T HANDLE MY EMOTIONS EVERY TIME.
• Storm gets us semi-lost, refusing to ask for directions because HE KNOWS DISNEY. Such a boy. At least he eventually got us where we needed to be.
• Cute hispanic tourist family asking for help. YAY! I SERVE PURPOSE!
• Hair is a frizzy mess. Absolutely awful. Why am I in public right now? Because I want food. And only Storm knows where he is taking me.
• DOWNTOWN DISNEY. Once again, needs. Buy. All the things. LOL what is money? How do I economy? 
• Go eat at Irish restaurant and it's close to 11... we didn't think that one through. Hah. All the drinking fools. Entertaining to watch. Storm people watches and I listen to the band. And that one lady does NOT. STOP. SCREAMING. I'm tempted to go up to her and ask in a very Disney voice, "And what are YOU celebrating today?"
• Get on the bus back to the hotel. Strike of 12, the bus is stopped at Pleasure Island. Happy Birthday Storm.
• Hotel. For the 2nd night, Storm does not know where he is going. According to his mom, it's a straight shot from the food court. -snicker-
• Room. Dead.

If he didn't like the present, he at least pretended to. My legs are about to fall off. I honestly look AWFUL. But you know what? Every flippin' second of it was worth it. So happy I can't contain it. I love this place. With this family. And this weather. It's all perfect.

A Smile In Your Heart

Can the reason for the next 3 days just be DISNEY?

'Cause I'm not wrong. That's legit it!

Grr. So much. Can't pick favorites. Alright. The next few posts will be a little different. I will still do a post-per-day style. LONG POST/STORY TIME! 

Reason 234 Disney Day One:

• Disney All-Star Sports Resort. Why so gorgeous? And so big. This is a hotel?! I get to sleep here?! What?!?! The towels are shaped like a mouse. I quit. Already perfect.
• Animal Kingdom. So warm. So nice. All kinds of pretty. Tree of Life! Ahh!
• Safari! I got to see the aminals :) 
• Take pictures with Pooh!!! And Eeyore!!! And Tigger!!!
• Look for ALL the Zebra things (yay Alpha Psi)
• Leave for Magic Kingdom. ON A PRETTY BOAT.
• Castle. So pretty. Oh gosh. I can't.
• PARADE! WITH ALL THE DISNEY CHARACTERS! OH GOSH THE TEARS START SO EARLY. But hey, it's all good 'cause Aladdin blew kisses at us. That's what's up.
• Man if I looked the part I could totally work here. I'd be so flippin' smiley.
• Buzz Lightyear's Space Ranger Spin. SHOOT EVERYTHING! ZURG IS SO COOL.
• PeopleMover! Cute little tour of Tomorrowland. I thoroughly enjoyed it.
• Pirates of the Caribbean. Hooray for the classic rides. How I love it.
• Mad Tea Party! More classic rides! Finally! It's too fun! 
• Jungle Cruise. Oh my gosh so many cheesy puns and jokes. I can't tell you how happy this made me.
• Magic Carpets of Aladdin. I love these types of rides! And a camel spit water at us haha refreshing for such a hot day. BUT I'LL TAKE THE HEAT! YAY FLORIDA!
• Big Thunder Mountain. Apparently the wimpiest of all Disney rides. So I got on. HOORAY FOR BEING ALIVE. But seriously, coasters aren't my thing. I'm sticking to teacups and parades.
• Haunted Mansion. Always SO COOL. Storm has theories about this place. 
• New Fantasyland. OMG EVERYTHING BEAUTY AND THE BEAST IS SO PERFECT. I CAN'T GET OVER THE DETAILS. THAT GIFT SHOP. dead.
• Gaston!!! But we couldn't take a picture. The line was closed because he had "to go work out". Typical haha
• Ariel's castle is so pretty :)
• TANGLED HAS THE BEST BATHROOMS OMG SO PRECIOUS
• Stitch's Great Escape. I absolutely adore this movie. And hope that, somehow, they manage to always advertise it.
• Laugh Floor. (Monster's Inc). OH MY GOODNESS did I love this place. Corny jokes and audience participation. All about that life.
• Electrical Parade. ALWAYS fun.
• 50 Years of Animation. Nope. Not even apologizing for my tears. Too much perfect.
• Wishes. HE WISHED FOR HIS FREEDOM. Oh I'm done.
• ^That explains nothing. It's a fireworks display that is about all the Disney wishes that characters make. And my favorite part was Aladdin.

I was stupid tired when I came back. But honestly? It was crazy kinds of worth it. And Stormy was a good sport and held my hand through the scary stuff. Plus, catching up was really something I needed. College changes all of us, of course, but I'm glad some of my best friend is still there :)

On The Road Again

 

It's okay Snoopy, no one laughs at my puns either.

Reason 182: Packing is difficult. And long. And strenuous. And kinda boring. BUT I'm just happy because I had a really great break, and I'm getting ready to go back to a really great school. Didn't miss the shower shoes or the fact that I have to log into the internet every time, but I'm gonna see my wonderful friends, be a part of a cool show, and take some awesome classes. Plus, I really did miss that dorm room. We'll just see how much dust I have to clean off the furniture :$ Maybe I'll be able to find time between rehearsals to actually apply for a job

Say No To Effort!

Reason 158: I kid about the title. But the reason is I'm realizing that everybody is going back to school so early! Seriously, I think Storm & I are the only ones with breaks as long as ours are. And I love it! I mean, I am excited to go back, but I'm loving this free time. I can sleep in, wear comfy clothes, and look a mess while jamming out to random songs and yelling at movies and catching up on my anime list. Best life! And I enjoy that I can spend time with people I love!

People I still have to see (mostly so I can keep note of it all):

• Naruto day(s) with Alex
• Princess & the Frog with Charlotte & Margie
• Ice Cream with Jason
• Something with Storm
• Marathon day with Eric
• Something with Evan
• Something with Spencer
• Daria day with Diana
• Baking day with the girls from our youth group
• Visit AEHS (??)
• Spend basically every other day with Karla :)

Buy textbooks and get a permit? Psh, nah! (She says sarcastically)

But in the meantime, I shall watch my favorite youtubers enjoying their holidays as well!

Heads up, Dan is mine <3

 (Part of her 12 days of Christmas series. A video every day, yay! Also, you should actually click your predicted winner at the end hehe)

Making Plans

Reason 116: Today was such a chill day. All I did was make plans for the rest of the week. Tomorrow will be quite a busy Thanksgiving (parade, church, making mashed potatoes, and partying with la familia!) and I can't wait. Friday will be the laughing trio reunion! Much needed. And Saturday is the big Ohio State vs Michigan game/visiting Karla/maybe visiting the salon 'cause Ivy (my hairdresser) says I need to go regularly to maintain the short cut/new My Little Pony/maybe seeing Wreck-It-Ralph! HOORAY for happy days. And I have no real homework except one for my Interactive Theatre class, but all I needed to do over break was send out a survey to current high school students. Which I did. Now we play the waiting game. Entertainment for the evening: DJ Hero, videos (youtube & facebook), and playing with Peligro.

Tell me this isn't the CUTEST thing (Original Disney Animated 50 <3)

About To Break

Reason 92: NO CLASSES TOMORROW. Thank you Sandy! More time to do my assignments :)

Follow Hurricane Sandy. Seriously, this page made my life.