Happy Memory Tears

For the past month, and especially the past week, I've had a lot of happy memory tears. I've been replaying memories in my mind over and over. And then, out of nowhere, a new one will pop up. And I'll cry. Because how could I forget that moment? How could I forget how much it mattered to me or how much it changed me? Some of the most beautiful things were said to me, or done with me. And I'm just go glad they are a part of me now.

I feel so stupid for spending a month so wrapped up in two short months of my life. But they were so amazing. Honestly. He can say he wasn't the best thing to ever happen to me and maybe he's right. But I don't think he will ever understand how much he has done for me. How blessed I am to have had him for two short months.

"Leave Me Out Too Long and I'll Go Bad"

Welp, if you're keeping up with my soundtrack of my life posts on the secret blog, you can look forward to November's songs tonight because I already know this one.

BREAKUPS

FREAKING

SUCK

This is the second time this year that I've broken up with someone I wasn't actually in a relationship with? Funny how that works. ALSO ironically the second time I've been broken up with on the same day that I attend a wedding! The first was in 7th grade when Jonathan dumped me. Funny how that works.

Except that was literally the most civil and logical breakup ever? And it was a decision we both came to? And we're still friends and literally nothing has changed? (Except for the fact that we are gonna stop pretending to pursue one another since we are very bad at acting like a couple). Who knows what God has in store for us? But we know that for now, a romantic relationship is not God's plan. I'd been praying about it forever, and I begged Him for an answer over break. I got it. He delivers on His promises, trust and believe. And it happened in the best way for me to not be bitter or upset about this for longer than necessary (aka as soon as I'm back on campus I'm going to feel amazing).

I'm happy today because I wasted over three months of my time and, as of tonight, I am no longer going to waste my time or le boy's. Also, THANK GOD this happened a week before my birthday because I was not about to deal with this on my special day. xxx

I CHANGED MY MIND

Reason 91: I'm proud of Sara. Her boyfriend has been crap to her lately, and timid little Sara has put up with it and worried and cried. Today, she's done. She's over it and fed up. His stuff is packed up and ready to move the heck out of her room. And a note with all the reasons that they should stay together (typed) with the words I CHANGED MY MIND over the list in Sharpie. Yes, she is hurt, but she's doing better. This is a major step for her. And now, we have a girls night :)

LOVE this song to no end.