Meeting Princesses

I know I talk about the boys' girlfriends a lot. Like a lot a lot. But it GENUINELY makes me happy to see people I care about happy with people they care about who care about them in return. That made sense right?

So, a small note. Harrison & Taylor are as precious as ever. Harrison's birthday is coming up and Taylor got him this really awesome fancy lens. I obviously know very little about photography, but Harrison is ecstatic. They treat each other well and he is honest to goodness proud of her and all the great things she's accomplishing in the fashion world. A couple that supports each other. Beautiful.

ALSO. Tonight, I went to see West Side Story at Watkins Mill. Evan's brother, James, played Tony. Freaking singers, yo. I swoon. But not the point. Evan was there! So it was cool to see him. And ALI WAS THERE. Little Miss Sunshine, I love Disney and music and all things that bring happiness, Ali. I've already talked about how much I love her, right? Welp she was there and we hugged and she actually had been asking about me and just. She's DARLING. And so pretty in person. And they're so cute. We sat behind them and they kept snuggling and I'm just like PRECIOUS BABIES I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU.

It just. I dunno. It gives me hope. Not necessarily that I'll find someone. But that all of us, we're gonna be okay. We're gonna stay friends, but still go our own ways. And we'll be okay! We'll be happy :)

Now all that's left is to meet Emily (Alex's freakin cutie of a girlfriend) in person and I'll officially be the creepy childhood friend :P

Sailing

My brother and his girlfriend are literally the cutest couple. LOOK. LOOK AT THEIR LOVE. It's legitimately the cutest.

TWO HUNDRED STRONG!

We shall start the 200th post with stories.

My phone conversation last night.

Mom: So what are you doing for Valentine's Day.

Me: Staying home?

Mom: Oh, I thought you'd go out with your friends or something.

Me: Well we wanted to, but you know, they have their boyfriends coming over. And I have rehearsal, plus no money, so it's just a better idea to stay home.

Mom: Oh alright, that's nice... So do you still talk to Storm?

Me: Yep.

Mom: How is he?

Me: Oh he's fine, he's doing well.

Mom: Oh okay... We'll talk more about that later.

Me: Umm. Kay.

Mom: So, who wants to be your boyfriend now?

Me: -shocked- No one?!

Mom: -GASP- Really?!?

Me: Yes mom. Really.

Mom: How do you know??

Me: Well, no one's exactly saying anything.

Mom: Oh. Okay. -Pouts- Alright, goodnight!

I'm sure this will be funny some day. Eventually. Admittedly, I was annoyed. In fact, I made it a point to show how annoyed I was. But I made myself some soup, sat down, and focused on my homework, allowing me to calm down and stop being angry over an honestly harmless conversation.

Earlier today, in my Communications class (with a focus on relationships), we were bringing up Valentine's Day. We brought up dates, and personal ads, and the level of love people have, and what people do for the special occasion, etc. Every time someone said the name of the holiday, the girl next to me grimaced, or rolled her eyes, or said something along the lines of "Gross", "Singles Awareness Day" yada yada. Whenever I laughed or looked at her questioningly, she'd laugh and say, "I'm just really bitter."

Reason 200: I'm not bitter. WELL, let's be honest, I am. But not NEARLY that much. There are moments, like last night, when it does hurt a little to think about the fact that I don't have a significant other. I think it's okay. It's normal. Desiring the affection of someone else is human, as far as I know. But I can't let it get to me. And I don't. I'm excited for tomorrow! Candy. Lots of pinks and reds. Toys. Teachers in a good mood, talking about their plans. And I get to see a lot of other couples being really happy. Well, I HAVE to see it, I won't be able to avoid it. So instead of whining, why not be happy for them? I'm happy so many people love and are loved in return. And I'm happy that, despite whatever negative experiences I may have had with any of my boys, we're all still such great friends, and we are there for each other in the way that is best for us. I'm blessed to have so many friends and not just some boyfriend that may leave whenever he wants. Besides, why be bitter that you're single? You don't have to buy a present or look nice for anyone or compromise for anyone. You have time to focus on you. Right now I can focus on my schoolwork, my acting, and finding ways to help my family and make them proud. Those are my priorities right now. A relationship can come later.

Someday :)

 

Happy February 13th