6-22-16

I was doing so well this month! Oof. Ah well. I'm prioritizing other things, and one late entry isn't the worst thing. On with the show.

I'm not actively TRYING to make this the week of Nick blogs but whoops! Whatcha gonna do? The boy had a meeting today. He was nervous about it for a while. But it happened today. It's over and done. And it went incredibly well! It's promised some pretty great possibilities for his future. He went in terrified and came out pleasantly surprised. As soon as he told me, I couldn't stop beaming. How lame is that, right? I'm pathetic. But it honestly made me so happy to know that his fear, not only didn't need to be a fear, but was actually something super good! Things are looking up and I am crazy happy for him.

Day 22 (late): Favorite Color

Purple!

Heroes Like Hercules

(Honey you mean HUNKules)

Hero (according to dictionary.com): noun. 1. a man of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his brave deeds and noble qualities. 2. a person who, in the opinion of others, has heroic qualities or has performed a heroic act and is regarded as a model or ideal.

My heroes

1. My sister who fights for what she believes in, doesn't conform to the ideas of others, takes on so much but gets it all done, and is a great person/sister/mother.
2. Mr. Rodgers who saw that there was no positivity in the television of his time and thought there should be a show that inspired people to be good and kind, so he made one. And rather than adapt a persona, he was a genuinely caring soul who was fascinated by the world around him and loved absolutely everyone, showing kindness to families all over the country.
3. Walt Disney, not a man free of his bad points mind you. But someone who went through a hard childhood and serious depression issues, and still dedicated his life to bringing joy and magic to others. Not only did he succeed, but that happiness touched people all over the globe for numerous generations.
4. Hayao Miyazaki who has a gift for storytelling. A true visionary, he sought to inspire the world to believe in purity, bravery, love, and magic. Furthermore, he inspired many young girls that they could be the heroes of their own stories.
5. Lin-Manuel Miranda who created In the Heights after many years of study and writing to perfect his craft. He pursued his dream in the arts, which many people, especially people of color, struggle to do, and he worked until he made it, and continues to create and inspire. For a long time, West Side Story was the only representation Latin Americans had on Broadway. Not that it's bad, it's my favorite show. But it's still only a show about a gang written by a Jew. For the first time, Miranda took the Hispanic voice and made it come to life with our stories, our language, and our music. He "made a hat where there never was a hat. It's a Latin hat at that".
6. Carrie Hope Fletcher who makes youtube videos. She loves so passionately. Her childlike spirit and love for Disney is incredible. She works and works to accomplish her dreams, and has been playing her dream role of Eponine in Les Miserables for over two years now after wishing on stars for 12, among other great roles, and has released her first book, reaching number one non-fiction for several weeks. Despite her hardships, she strives to be a source of light and optimism for herself and those around her. She fell in love with an abusive, disgusting person who did not deserve her, and she dared to want better for herself. She fought and fought to rid herself of this person and, after much struggling, she was able to kick him out of her life for good. She could now prioritize her mental health and her emotions, which was a huge inspiration to me at a time when I needed to do the same.

All these people are my heroes. And not a single one had to go to a different country carrying a gun in order to change my life. The happy news is that Carrie posted this today on her blog. And it's so simple and sweet, but it means the world. I could rave for hours about how much I admire her. I aspire to be like her. She truly is a brilliant light and I cannot express enough how glad I am to see that she is shining once again. There is no one more deserving. 

Meeting Princesses

I know I talk about the boys' girlfriends a lot. Like a lot a lot. But it GENUINELY makes me happy to see people I care about happy with people they care about who care about them in return. That made sense right?

So, a small note. Harrison & Taylor are as precious as ever. Harrison's birthday is coming up and Taylor got him this really awesome fancy lens. I obviously know very little about photography, but Harrison is ecstatic. They treat each other well and he is honest to goodness proud of her and all the great things she's accomplishing in the fashion world. A couple that supports each other. Beautiful.

ALSO. Tonight, I went to see West Side Story at Watkins Mill. Evan's brother, James, played Tony. Freaking singers, yo. I swoon. But not the point. Evan was there! So it was cool to see him. And ALI WAS THERE. Little Miss Sunshine, I love Disney and music and all things that bring happiness, Ali. I've already talked about how much I love her, right? Welp she was there and we hugged and she actually had been asking about me and just. She's DARLING. And so pretty in person. And they're so cute. We sat behind them and they kept snuggling and I'm just like PRECIOUS BABIES I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU.

It just. I dunno. It gives me hope. Not necessarily that I'll find someone. But that all of us, we're gonna be okay. We're gonna stay friends, but still go our own ways. And we'll be okay! We'll be happy :)

Now all that's left is to meet Emily (Alex's freakin cutie of a girlfriend) in person and I'll officially be the creepy childhood friend :P

Sailing

My brother and his girlfriend are literally the cutest couple. LOOK. LOOK AT THEIR LOVE. It's legitimately the cutest.

Discipline

I can post about being happy for people, right? That counts?

It's my blog, I'm doing it.
400 POSTS!

I just wanna say I'm INCREDIBLY happy for Mama Kowaleski (Storm's Mommy). This year she's been on strict diet and exercise. She felt that she needed a healthier lifestyle and she went for it. She did what made her happy. And, according to her blog, she looks and feels much better. She really seems to just be happier with herself. Willing to try new things and work hard at her goals. And that's so great. It takes A LOT of work and persistence to pull something like that off. Most people give up on themselves before even trying. I'm just really happy that a great woman feels great about herself.

In the spirit of changing for the better. Go do something

 

TWO HUNDRED STRONG!

We shall start the 200th post with stories.

My phone conversation last night.

Mom: So what are you doing for Valentine's Day.

Me: Staying home?

Mom: Oh, I thought you'd go out with your friends or something.

Me: Well we wanted to, but you know, they have their boyfriends coming over. And I have rehearsal, plus no money, so it's just a better idea to stay home.

Mom: Oh alright, that's nice... So do you still talk to Storm?

Me: Yep.

Mom: How is he?

Me: Oh he's fine, he's doing well.

Mom: Oh okay... We'll talk more about that later.

Me: Umm. Kay.

Mom: So, who wants to be your boyfriend now?

Me: -shocked- No one?!

Mom: -GASP- Really?!?

Me: Yes mom. Really.

Mom: How do you know??

Me: Well, no one's exactly saying anything.

Mom: Oh. Okay. -Pouts- Alright, goodnight!

I'm sure this will be funny some day. Eventually. Admittedly, I was annoyed. In fact, I made it a point to show how annoyed I was. But I made myself some soup, sat down, and focused on my homework, allowing me to calm down and stop being angry over an honestly harmless conversation.

Earlier today, in my Communications class (with a focus on relationships), we were bringing up Valentine's Day. We brought up dates, and personal ads, and the level of love people have, and what people do for the special occasion, etc. Every time someone said the name of the holiday, the girl next to me grimaced, or rolled her eyes, or said something along the lines of "Gross", "Singles Awareness Day" yada yada. Whenever I laughed or looked at her questioningly, she'd laugh and say, "I'm just really bitter."

Reason 200: I'm not bitter. WELL, let's be honest, I am. But not NEARLY that much. There are moments, like last night, when it does hurt a little to think about the fact that I don't have a significant other. I think it's okay. It's normal. Desiring the affection of someone else is human, as far as I know. But I can't let it get to me. And I don't. I'm excited for tomorrow! Candy. Lots of pinks and reds. Toys. Teachers in a good mood, talking about their plans. And I get to see a lot of other couples being really happy. Well, I HAVE to see it, I won't be able to avoid it. So instead of whining, why not be happy for them? I'm happy so many people love and are loved in return. And I'm happy that, despite whatever negative experiences I may have had with any of my boys, we're all still such great friends, and we are there for each other in the way that is best for us. I'm blessed to have so many friends and not just some boyfriend that may leave whenever he wants. Besides, why be bitter that you're single? You don't have to buy a present or look nice for anyone or compromise for anyone. You have time to focus on you. Right now I can focus on my schoolwork, my acting, and finding ways to help my family and make them proud. Those are my priorities right now. A relationship can come later.

Someday :)

 

Happy February 13th