A Solid Day Off

Days off are for marathoning! I finished all of Defenders. I did it. My New Years Resolution is met. I'm gonna try to start Punisher before bed but I'M SO HAPPY. I did the thing. Wow I cried, it was good. But mostly I'm proud of me haha. Thank God for do nothing days.

I spoke with Michael today after not doing so for a long time. Without talking too much about that, it made me feel a lot better. I'm glad we got the chance to call today. And the end result is we're gonna see Thirty Seconds to Mars together in June, so there's that. I'M GONNA SEE THIRTY SECONDS TO MARS IN JUNE. AHHH. Also Walk the Moon, who are awesome, and a handful of other bands I'll have to check out. But AHH HUSBAND.

Those Goals

It is January 25 and I have read my second book of the year! I'm pretty glad to be speeding along. Hopefully I find time this semester to make sure I keep reading. Gotta reach that 12 book resolution!! The next book is Unbroken. Wish my luck!

Day 25: Bright

You get THREE pics today! Aren't they pretty? I want to buy them all :)

July First(s) - Sparkle

Hooray for a new month! I'm pretty excited for it. Especially because new things happen this month. For starters, it's the new fiscal year at work, so things are kinda slowing down but mostly just getting back to a normal pace again. Also, I have been slacking on ab workouts and just doing cardio. John would be sad. SO I told myself July would be when I started them up again. It's gonna suck. But that will be great haha. July is the month I start watching the Marvel movies. That will happen soon because it needs to. Hopefully, this weekend! And, thanks to Barbara Dunkelman and Meg Turney, I am going to to a July photo challenge! I don't have instagram so I think I'll just follow along on here! The list is here if you are interested.

Day 1 - Sparkle

Accomplishing Goals

This Route Has Tolls

Existential Crisis

This is the man I will marry. HAH I am so silly. But actually. What if I go to London and meet him O.O okay Sammy stop. Anyway. It's pretty cool knowing people think about this stuff. I mean people other than myself. But, as Dan says, the world doesn't stop for you. So make the most of it!!! And enjoy the little things. Such as THAT AMAZING RUBIK'S CUBE MUG! Also, can we talk about the fact that Phil totally saw Dan and just walked back into his room 'cause he's probably completely used to it.

Ongoing Process

Life and plans and such. Constantly moving forward. So here is how things stand.

• I AM HOME FOR FALL BREAK. HALLELU! I shall be here from, well, Friday night, to early Wednesday morning, since I have no morning classes. MUCH NEEDED break at home
• Spent last night and all today with Karla & Cristina & Eric. Twas lovely as always. Oh how I missed that little girl. Missed her with all my heart. And time with Karla is always just so healing.
• This Monday my Dad and I are going to get my passport stuff sorted. I highly doubt I can, on account of this fun little government shutdown. My Dad doubts it, too. My Mom says we should check anyway. It is in my best interest to get it, and I'd rather say I tried. So, as things stand, Monday is passport day.
• SHOULD MY PASSPORT COME BEFORE JANUARY. Yes. I am going to Europe. The most amazing trip ever. And it will be glorious.
• SHOULD IT NOT COME. There shall be an alteration of plans.
• Europe 2016. Possibly no Doctor Who experience, but basically all the restaurants and tours and shows are the same. The trip will come again and I will be able to have the most memorable senior year ever.
• Toronto 2015/2017. That is a goal. Assuming I'm using the extra year(s) to save up, I should at some point get enough for my much wanted trip to Canada. It will happen within the next 4 years, I am determined. Hopefully the prices aren't ridiculously higher than they are now.
• No more BufferFest. As incredible as the whole experience is. No passport. No free transport now that Kimberly is not going. And the expense of the tickets for all the events. It's a Youtube convention, not a concert. So, I've made a decision. Until a Youtube convention reaches DC or Baltimore, or I just happen to be in the assigned area at the convenient time, I won't plan on attending.
• thisroutehastolls will be up before the end of 2014. One way or another. I doubt I will ever have money to buy my own mic and camera, so unless I am gifted these things, I should stop waiting for that to happen. HOWEVER I am seriously debating getting a smartphone. Specifically for the camera. Lord knows I HATE smartphones and it's not like my Dad and I can afford data anyway. But tons of people do iPhone vlogs. Maybe my quality won't be so great but I'm sure we can make up for it in content. And that way, your sister and I have more or less the same quality in our videos. We'll work our way up to better visuals later. Honestly, our focus just needs to be starting the channel.

Like I said. I'm a dreamer. Maybe this is just where I write everything down. So that I jinx it. Or just remember it. Or have witnesses to hold me to my goals. I dunno. I plan on keeping you updated. These things are pretty major events that I want in my life. It's only right that you stay updated on it all :)

"Burn After Reading"

Reason 317: I got a letter today. You actually drew me a picture. I love you forever and for always. If I had a vision board, this picture would be on it. This is gonna happen. Toronto 20Someday. Nope, I shall not burn this letter! I have off tomorrow, so I'll reply then :) It arrived fairly quickly, too!

I've decided I like Carly Rae Jepsen

AMOR. CTPACTb. 信念. RÊVES.

Reason 300

I got mail. I got mail. I got mail hey hey hey hey! I got mail. I got mail! And it's the 30 Seconds to Mars album! TODAY TODAY TODAY (mixing song references is confusing).

They've blown my mind. Honestly. This album is beautiful. And I own a copy!!

Guys. This is my 300th post. That's pretty crazy. I've been doing this for almost a full year now. 300 reasons that I enjoy my life. That is truly something to be celebrated. I love that this exists. I love that this is mine. Thanks for being a part of the journey with me. For all 3 of you that read this, let me know what you think. I've really had a blast with this, and it was super easy to get into the habit of writing an entry a day. Should I keep it going once the year is done? Would you guys be interested? I probably wouldn't update it every day, but still. Comment with your opinions or suggestions!

Summer 2013

Reason 291: I have a job! My mom just told me today that her boss agreed to let me work the store over the summer, and I start Monday. How awesome is that?! I feel like I can finally actually contribute something to this family. After months of wondering if anyone would get back to me, finally a guaranteed job.

This summer has to be different. No more of that "worst time of the year" nonsense. I'm becoming more independent. And soon, I'll even be able to help with my niece. This time, it's all about me becoming the person I want to be. New Year's Resolution: In progress! Oh, that feels great!

Let's talk about this intro :)

Highlight of the WEEK

Sammy: I'm legitimately trying to find a discreet way to blog about it

Jess: lol be blunt as hell. He deserves it

<3

Reason 216: I'm not going to be "blunt as hell" haha. Let's just say a friend of mine posted something today. It was a very simple statement in regards to how he felt about his current situation. In short, he's content. On Saturday, Reason 210, I ended by quoting the picture I used, "I will do it." Today, thanks to this simple statement, I can say I've reached the final step. Because I'm content, too. Better than that. I'm finally extremely happy. And it can only get better from here. "Yes, I did it!"

PS: Thanks to all for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. I feel SO much better in regards to this stupid illness. Gastroenteritis takes a good week to get rid of, so I'm still pretty contagious. But the symptoms are gone, and I've managed to mostly get rid of the cough I had beforehand. I don't sound dead when I sing anymore. Our show opens Wednesday. I'm going to Disney World. Blessings all around. God is good. Forgive me if I sound like I'm bragging, but I'm really just so happy.

Ed Sheeran rapping. Cannot get over it.

TWO HUNDRED STRONG!

We shall start the 200th post with stories.

My phone conversation last night.

Mom: So what are you doing for Valentine's Day.

Me: Staying home?

Mom: Oh, I thought you'd go out with your friends or something.

Me: Well we wanted to, but you know, they have their boyfriends coming over. And I have rehearsal, plus no money, so it's just a better idea to stay home.

Mom: Oh alright, that's nice... So do you still talk to Storm?

Me: Yep.

Mom: How is he?

Me: Oh he's fine, he's doing well.

Mom: Oh okay... We'll talk more about that later.

Me: Umm. Kay.

Mom: So, who wants to be your boyfriend now?

Me: -shocked- No one?!

Mom: -GASP- Really?!?

Me: Yes mom. Really.

Mom: How do you know??

Me: Well, no one's exactly saying anything.

Mom: Oh. Okay. -Pouts- Alright, goodnight!

I'm sure this will be funny some day. Eventually. Admittedly, I was annoyed. In fact, I made it a point to show how annoyed I was. But I made myself some soup, sat down, and focused on my homework, allowing me to calm down and stop being angry over an honestly harmless conversation.

Earlier today, in my Communications class (with a focus on relationships), we were bringing up Valentine's Day. We brought up dates, and personal ads, and the level of love people have, and what people do for the special occasion, etc. Every time someone said the name of the holiday, the girl next to me grimaced, or rolled her eyes, or said something along the lines of "Gross", "Singles Awareness Day" yada yada. Whenever I laughed or looked at her questioningly, she'd laugh and say, "I'm just really bitter."

Reason 200: I'm not bitter. WELL, let's be honest, I am. But not NEARLY that much. There are moments, like last night, when it does hurt a little to think about the fact that I don't have a significant other. I think it's okay. It's normal. Desiring the affection of someone else is human, as far as I know. But I can't let it get to me. And I don't. I'm excited for tomorrow! Candy. Lots of pinks and reds. Toys. Teachers in a good mood, talking about their plans. And I get to see a lot of other couples being really happy. Well, I HAVE to see it, I won't be able to avoid it. So instead of whining, why not be happy for them? I'm happy so many people love and are loved in return. And I'm happy that, despite whatever negative experiences I may have had with any of my boys, we're all still such great friends, and we are there for each other in the way that is best for us. I'm blessed to have so many friends and not just some boyfriend that may leave whenever he wants. Besides, why be bitter that you're single? You don't have to buy a present or look nice for anyone or compromise for anyone. You have time to focus on you. Right now I can focus on my schoolwork, my acting, and finding ways to help my family and make them proud. Those are my priorities right now. A relationship can come later.

Someday :)

 

Happy February 13th