Night and Day

I know you read the private blog every chance you get. I'm sure you saw that last night my emotions were everywhere. I had a lot of feelings about a lot of things. I went to bed angry. I hope you read this blog, too. If nothing else, I hope you read it today.

I woke up from a dream about Jonathan. First time in a long while. I mean, aside from that odd one in Chicago but I know exactly why that one happened, and my immediate reaction was a strong desire to call Nick haha. It's weird that Jonathan isn't my number one in that regard anymore, but it's a welcome challenge. Even if my preference isn't exactly attainable, I'd like to think Nick is pretty great improvement. I obviously woke up surprised today, and even a little nostalgic. But I think the best part is that I woke up with nostalgia and not longing or sadness or jealousy. Getting over your first love is an ongoing process and I'm not sure it ends. But I'm gaining peace. A peace I clearly did not have yesterday.

I woke up feeling surprisingly rested for someone who got less than 6 hours of sleep. I got the chance to pray this morning, and I actually had time to talk to God about every item on my list. I rarely have time for that, and it felt so good to give my problems up to God at the start of my day. I even had a bit of extra time. So I watched some of my shows and started the next step in the VBS decorations I'm making. I also sent a good morning text to the cast of Alpha Psi today. They've been on my heart lately and I hope I could help them start their day right.

Everyone's in a good mood at the office today. It's Friday so we get out early. We're all chatting and laughing. I'm making some good progress today. I am finally caught up in my work. The doctors aren't here and there's less patients so everyone is casual and comfy, and they feel so much relief that it's rubbed off on me. I packed a lunch but Hermana Claudia is a gem and she's buying us pizza. Looks like my lunch can be my dinner tonight!

After work, my dad and I will practice driving. We're going back to the parking lot so I can practice backing up hehe. I feel oddly at ease about it? I'm sure I'll have nerves when I do it, but I don't foresee it being nearly as bad as I've been in the past. And then I will go home and hopefully have time to make a video. During which I will most likely be making more decorations hehe. Today is a good day. It's Friday! I feel better than I have in quite some time. Let's keep this good mood going!

9/28/15

Jess A. has been very sick for about a week. She has been going through some ickyness. Nothing she isn't used to, mind you. But it has still been less than fun. She's had to miss a lot of tech because of it. It's been kinda heartbreaking and worrisome.

Monday morning. She is up bright and early in a cute sweater and JEANS. She was grateful to be in jeans as opposed to sweats. She said she finally felt like a human again. Which is awesome. During rehearsal, she was there working with all the other technicians and laughing at the horrible things that Elizabeth said and making the show magical. It felt good to have her back.

Lipstick

"You looked so pretty last night. Like so pretty. I just really like you in red lipstick. I dunno. Just you in red lipstick. I like it. I'm going to get you some for your birthday. And something else. But red lipstick for your birthday." - Sara Connolly

This week hasn't been easy. I've felt pretty miserable. But you know what? I had to put that aside for a few hours every night. I put it aside and did what was best for the show. I smiled and collected tickets and showed people where the bathroom was and took them on the service elevator and sold chocolates and cleaned the theatre and told everyone how wonderfully they were doing. And I smiled! Even if my role wasn't so important, I pulled myself together and did the best I could for it. And, honestly, I looked fabulous doing it.

Summer Love

Reason 293: This is kind of weird, but I'm just excited about summer. That's kind of a cop out, I know, but I'm really just genuinely excited. I'm never excited about summer. I hate summer. Bad stuff always happens in the summer. But this year feels different. I feel lighter. More positive. Ready to go and be who I want to be. And just enjoy my time off. I dunno, maybe it's because this is the first year without summer reading hehe. Nonetheless, feels good!

Bringin' It Back!

Point 1 for Sammy

Reason 276: First time I get feedback from an English paper and DON'T feel like the worst. FEELS GOOD! High fives all around. Yes to this. I like this. I could get used to this. Just a few quick fixes and edits. I can do that! It's sad how great this is for me. Oh well. Deal with it. Happy dance with me :)

As promised ^_^

Highlight of the WEEK

Sammy: I'm legitimately trying to find a discreet way to blog about it

Jess: lol be blunt as hell. He deserves it

<3

Reason 216: I'm not going to be "blunt as hell" haha. Let's just say a friend of mine posted something today. It was a very simple statement in regards to how he felt about his current situation. In short, he's content. On Saturday, Reason 210, I ended by quoting the picture I used, "I will do it." Today, thanks to this simple statement, I can say I've reached the final step. Because I'm content, too. Better than that. I'm finally extremely happy. And it can only get better from here. "Yes, I did it!"

PS: Thanks to all for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. I feel SO much better in regards to this stupid illness. Gastroenteritis takes a good week to get rid of, so I'm still pretty contagious. But the symptoms are gone, and I've managed to mostly get rid of the cough I had beforehand. I don't sound dead when I sing anymore. Our show opens Wednesday. I'm going to Disney World. Blessings all around. God is good. Forgive me if I sound like I'm bragging, but I'm really just so happy.

Ed Sheeran rapping. Cannot get over it.

Speedy Recovery

Reason 167: Woot woot! My mommy is ALREADY feeling better :) Whatever it was we were so worried about is gone, thank God. We can all sleep in peace!

Blogger is being rebellious. Usually I add a video or picture, but for the past 2 days, Blogger has just said NO. So, I'm just gonna leave this here for you.

DISNEY QUOTES!

Nothing’s Impossible – Doorknob

I laugh in the face of danger – Simba

Even miracles take a little time – Fairy Godmother

She’s out there somewhere. I just haven’t found her yet – Prince Eric

Remember: Faint heart never won fair lady – Robin Hood

Keep your chin up. Someday, there will be happiness again – Robin Hood

The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all – Emperor

They say if you dream a thing more than once, it’s sure to come true – Briar Rose

What do you do when things go wrong? Oh! You sing a song – Snow White

Always let your conscience be your guide – Blue Fairy

Giving up is for rookies – Hercules

There's a great big hunk of world down there with no fences around it.  Where two dogs can find adventure and excitement.  And beyond those distant hills, who knows what wonderful experiences.  And it's all ours for the taking – Tramp

The very things that hold you down are going to lift you up – Timothy Mouse

You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you   think – Christopher Robin

Faith makes things turn out right – Penny

Look inside yourself. You are more than what you have become – Mufasa

The most fantastic, magical things can happen. And it all starts with a wish – Jiminy Cricket

The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it - Rafiki

Sometimes the right path is not the easiest one -Grandmother Willow

Does A Body Good

Reason 166: Today we've had no internet all day. I'm rushing to write this because I hope it doesn't go away. So, without internet, there really wasn't much to do. So I napped. What? Naps? Sammy?! Yeah, me. It was the first time in YEARS that I took a nap without getting a headache. Oh man, it was beautiful. My body was all relaxed and cozy! Teehee now I see what all the fuss is about. And I woke up feeling energized! Had a pretty good workout session, if I do say so myself. I mean... not for an average person, but you know, for me, who hates any physical movement ever haha. Feelin' fine!

PS: I must ask, pretty please pray for my mommy. She's been feeling sick all day, it's been pretty bad but I think it's letting up. Your prayers would be much appreciated <3