Almost At The End!

• Sunny day! Sweeping the clouds away! The sun has got his hat on, hip hip hip hooray. It was sucha  freaking gloomy weekend and WOW did natural light really make a difference today.
• Shantall brought croissants and cheese and turkey today. Yummy work breakfast!
• 30 Day Challenge complete! Not this, the blog challenge isn't until tomorrow. But I've been listening to ONLY WGTS (the Christian station) in my car for at least 30 days. I can honestly say I don't have any plans to change the station anytime soon. I won't say it's affected me throughout the whole day, but it definitely makes driving a little easier
• I got my puzzle today! My April puzzle arrived. I think I might do 2 in March because the last thing I need right now is a depressant (aka something to calm me down. My anxiety is fine for now - it's my depression I need to work on, so I need more things to keep me alert and active). I look forward to making pretty things!
• Andrew Givens is a gem of a human haha. He's Jonathan's best friend since they were itty bitties. Having not heard from Jonathan since November, and being my paranoid self, I decided to ask Andrew if he knew how Lieder was doing. Apparently the same thing happened to him, so JUST TODAY, the two spoke. Only because Andrew made his family force Jonathan to text him haha. I'm happy to hear that he's working hard and doing well, and that it isn't just me missing my best friend. Andrew then proceeded to tell me how he's convinced that Jonathan and I are meant for each other, and that he tells Jonathan this often. He confirmed that Jonathan does in fact hate that as much as I assumed he would hahaha. He's so very wrong, bless his soul, but it's still kind of cute that he'd say that. I really should talk to Andrew more.
• This Is Us comes back from hiatus tonight! Now that the Olympics are done, I can have my weekly Tuesday night cry, courtesy of NBC

Important Tears

A successful Friday! Today I actually managed to get some decent stuff done at work. It was also my boss' birthday! Dr. Gowda, the one who has me as his surgery coordinator. We got him a yummy, cute little cake and everything. It was a nice moment. And later, when UberEats randomly showed up at our office, we realized it was his beautiful, loving wife sending her hubby lunch for his special day. How sweet is that? I really like her. And I really like the two of them together. I can't explain hehe they just make me happy.

Today I take apart the Jesus puzzle (my January one) and start working on February. It's a collection of pies! Which sounds really good right about now. I've been craving cookies or a donut or like a SOLID dessert all day. Cake is too squishy to count haha.

I had plans with Xabiel but he had to cancel. Which means I spend the night in. Honestly? So freaking relaxing. I'm watching One Day at a Time. This show is so good. I already adored it and all the issues it tackled. But season 2 is something new. And I'm obsessed. And as much as I laugh and love, it also really hits home. The episode I just watched was about depression, how one character realized she'd have to live with it forever and she can't just go off meds and stop therapy expecting to suddenly be cured. The intensity was real. I can't describe it but, knowing that my depression feels like hers sometimes and that this time period is usually when it hits its peak, it really just pulled at my heart. Full tears. And to hear that her mother, who doesn't really get mental health and never knew how best to support her, could finally admit to not fully understanding but still wanting her daughter to do whatever necessary to be happy REALLY. REALLY. Hit my gut. I don't think I can stress how important that is. Even if it was from a fictional character, I think I really needed to hear it.

I texted Karla when the episode ended and told her I was sobbing. Because I was, no exaggeration. No giant heaving breaths or anything dramatic but honest to goodness tears that will not stop. And I told her I needed chocolate and ice cream and blankets. She sent me "I'M HERE FOR YOUUUUUU!!!!!!" followed by emojis of chocolate and ice cream and beds with blankets. If there's anyone I can count on it's my sister.

Completion

It is Fat Tuesday, so I HAD to work on my new 500 piece Mardi Gras puzzle, full of pretty masks and beads and stuff. Unfirtunately, it's 500 pieces and it's all a bunch of shiny and purple and green and yellow and sparkle and whyyyy. But, with the help of some friends, it was finally completed. It's glorious. And it's gonna sit on this table for like a week.

Day 9: Simple

The world lost its color again

Puzzle

I sat down. And completed a puzzle. While Mariah, Paul, Jen, and Mandy watched American Idol with me (don't ask), I completed a really cool Disney villain puzzle. Some people color. I do puzzles. I am happy.

Day 6: Clean

Branches wiped clean by the winter.

Can't wait for them to be green again.