A Post A Day In February

The short version will be a video. Hopefully. The long version goes here.

Today is February 1st. I am starting a new project. Since February is always the month where my depression is at its peak and I am an absolute disaster of emotions, I wanted to cut that down by doing something that makes me happy. I'm going to write in the blog every day this month. I am going to find the good in February. I feel like Mandy might maybe possibly stumble upon this? In all honesty, the person most likely to read this is Michael. Ah well. That's what the vlog will be for. In some alternate universe, Angelique and Nick never stopped reading this. Maybe Paul and Gabe kept up, too. Mariah? Nah. It's fine. This month is for me. Here's to starting a new project.

The beginning of the month also means a new picture on the calendar. My Disney calendar is Peter Pan. My Dan & Phil and dogs calendar is valentines Pomeranians. Le death.

Today marks 3 years since Monty Oum passed away. It's still. So. Weird. How much I miss him. Like wow it shouldn't hurt this bad. I've never met him. But he changed my life and countless others, and he inspired me. So today I'm grateful for Monty. And I'm happily watching RWBY reactions so I can see other people fall in love with his magic. And I'm watching my twitter feed remember him, because he really did touch so many people. It's a beautiful celebration of a wonderful man.

Today Was Hard

Today was long and tiring and difficult. Not without its good moments of course, because I am already so blessed and the people around me make even the darkest days better. But I gotta say, coming home to Mariah asking how to girl and flipping out over lack of knowledge about nail polish was more than a little amusing. Silly Mariah.

Day 1: Red

A friend of mine bought me this poster from an Etsy shop, so unfortunately I do not know which artist to credit. But when I saw the prompt for today, of all days, I knew there was no other choice but this. Missing Monty every day <3

Beautiful Souls

So a couple of work things that make me super happy, despite mother constantly hovering over me as if I don't know how to behave in a work environment. I love having young people around. That feels weird and old of me to say. But the last time I was working at this store, I was the only person in her teens or near her twenties. It sucked feeling so formal all the time. I felt like a baby, not an employee. But now I have Kevin (my godsister Ariel's little brother) who is like 18 or 19 now. And a guy named Rony (Roni? Ronnie? Ronny? Must ask). Who is probably like 16, and goes to Blair. He doesn't talk to me as much, but he is really chill. It's just NICE to have those people and feel like I can be goofy without my only "peers" going "aww look how cute she is". Joke WITH me, people! Also, I was hired to do a very specific job, but I still find myself helping the cashiers do some of their stuff (as long as it's not behind the register. I remember the struggle. I got their backs). And my boss told me today how she is so happy with me and that I am helping out because she's been asking for all this stuff to be done for MONTHS and I did more work in one day. That felt awesome.

These two videos are very important to me.

Both for very different reasons.

(R.I.P Monty Oum. You make me so proud)

Apologies & Thanks

Some days. Rarely. Once in a blue moon. There are bad days. Rough things happen and it's hard to really be optimistic. That doesn't mean every moment is awful. Not by a long shot. But even so, it's hard to remember the good. In those days when you've gotten your heart broken. When you lose a job. Money troubles can be scary. The death of a loved one, or even someone you didn't know personally but really admired, can be devestating.

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I'm sorry I did not take the time to write. I had been doing so well too. Almost a full week of blogging daily. But I slipped due to an overwhelming sadness. Still, I am thankful for the love and support I received yesterday. People willing to cheer me up and be understanding of my situation as well as others who shared my feelings reminding me that I was not alone and they were for me as I am there for them. Community is important. I'm blessed to be a part of such a great one.

Rest in Peace, Monty Oum

A Sense of Community

The Rooster Teeth fandom is far from perfect, but I promise we come together when it matters.

Monty Oum is an employee at Rooster Teeth. He is best known for writing RWBY and doing the fight choreography and motion capture scenes in RWBY and Red vs Blue. He's also a great dancer, a dog person, a loving husband, and an all around wonderful person. Today, we found out that Monty has been hospitalized. "He is currently hospitalized in critical care and it is not known if he will recover. He is receiving the best medical care possible and is surrounded by both family and friends who love him very much."

A go fund me page was created in order to help Monty's family with his medical expenses. The ultimate goal was $50,000.

In the span of 5 hours, they have raised $100,500. And if I know this community at all, that number will only continue to rise until the man we all admire so much is back home with the people he loves. It is the absolute least we can do for a person who has brought so much joy to our lives.

Sending love & prayers to Monty and Sheena in this difficult time.

To donate, visit: http://www.gofundme.com/MontyandSheena